Irredeemable

Irredeemable


I used to know how it felt to live step by step with you
Now I don’t even recognise your voice
I ran for a mile, through the treacherous rocky, flat paths
But now I can’t face the climb

And don’t you know it, Lord?
If you’re all-seeing, God?
Then what I’m hiding isn’t concealed.
I could rationalize
But you see through my lies
Right to the heart of me
That I don’t love you
Not really

What I had, and what I heard from you
Wasn’t in my head, it was undeniably true
And I am ruined for anything else this world can offer me
Because nothing compares with you

But I never listen, I never ever try
I know the concepts, but I’ve lost the fire
And I can’t blame anyone else but me
Because I know I’ve only led myself here

And you can see it Lord.
That’s what kills me most
All my acting is useless with you
But if you really see it all
Then you know my heart
And how much I want to follow you…..

Well, your love for me
Must reach so deep
If what I am has never changed your mind
You’re the shepherd
I’m the worst of your sheep
But you’re always reaching out and saving my life
You bring me back…
You’ll bring me back
Just like you always have

Even when I feel like this time I am too far gone
For my own strength I am, but for you I’m not
You bring me near, whisper the only thing I need to hear
Lord, I’m never irredeemable.